Shame and Grace Part 8 - The Real Guilt

Oct 09

Shame and Grace Part 8 - The Real Guilt

Tue, 10/09/2012 - 06:24 — Thabo Mokete

The basis of real guilt is to be aware of a law, and to be estranged from it. It is to know the ideal, but not be able to access it. It also comes as the realization that one falls short of the standard of well-being.

Suppose there exists a perfect human will, which we will call the perfectly oriented will. Perfectly oriented in that it is rightly connected to its source , the divine will. Is there a need to write a law for such a will?  It lives the divine will. It coincides with divine will. There is no law, only love and harmony.

However, the moment the human will deviates from its divine source, it becomes disoriented. Everything it does is corrupted by the disorientation. The way it co-ordinates consciousness is tainted by the estrangement. It can no longer see reality as it is, but from a bent and heavily filtered perspective.

It now sees everything with reference to itself, but as separate from everything else in life. Where as before everything was in reference to the superior will (divine) in which it was submerged. That is, it saw everything from a heavenly point of view, which it coincided with.2 Now it has no access to that heavenly view. The human will now sees the heavenly view as apart from, as a condemnation to its own orientation.

It now becomes aware of a law. The will through its consciousness becomes aware of a law. This law is actually the divine will or the ideal that it can no longer conform to. To say law is to say that now it sees the ideal from an angle, where as before it saw no law, it was the law itself.

What we often call relativity of things testifies to the fact when we use ourselves as a reference, nothing is absolute, because all things created were made with reference to the divine will. Sourced from there. Where man stands is now opposite of the divine will3. He cannot access the absolute.

This is the real guilt of human beings. The human will that stands in opposition to the divine will from which it originated. Every sensation of guilt is a shadow of this. It is just like one giant mountain that has many shadows around it, of rocks and trees on it. Each shadow is like a symbol pointing to this alienation. In religious terms, we call this estrangement, sin4. The shadows of this sin is called sins.

This is what religion has done typically, by pointing out the variance between the ideal and the current existence.  That is how it unpacks the concept of sin. This means that throughout a human being's life, there is not a moment in which he or she stands not guilty. They are all guilty by orientation, before they do any action.5

So, everything that happens, the human being sees it in an upside down orientation from the truth. His or her consciousness of reality brings pain instead of joy. Reality hurts, love hurts, the world is evil, and all such phrases we keep saying are testament to this.6 There is alienation of the human consciousness from life itself. As Tillich points out, we sometimes, if not often, feel a hostility from life. In turn we are hostile to that which we feel is hostile to us.4 Even when we try to worship God, we still harbor some hostility towards Him in the secret chambers of our being. This is seen in the lack of love we have for life itself and God. We resort to cold obedience to letters of the law, and cannot love Him as we could if we were not upset.


We will not at this point get into the reason why the human being had to deviate form his perfect paradise. The question why can be dealt with later on.

What we have now established is that every human being on this planet has to go through an experience of this fundamental guilt. The guilt that simply comes by existence. Of standing condemned by the law without even having done anything yet. To live under this law is to be accused and accursed.7

As Paul the apostle rightly points out, the law is holy, but this holy law has become a hostility towards man3 because of man's orientation. Man cannot access those ideals expressed in the law.
This state of things is very upsetting. As bio-psychologist Jeremy Griffiths clearly stated the question of the human condition:
“If the universally accepted ideals are to be cooperative, loving and selfless...why then are humans competitive, aggressive and selfish?8

We feel condemned by the ideals of love, because we recognize them as such, but we behave differently. It makes us angry and shake a fist, or raise that middle finger.8

What the Creator has done therefore is to deal with the problem at source. He made the initiative to restore and regenerate the disoriented will by His grace. His gave us the temporary ministry first of dealing with the shadows of guilt (old religions). The ministry of Aaron.9 The situation was so upsetting that we were not ready to understand the actual problem, the real situation. We only wanted to stop the pain of guilt. Thus all religion worked at this level, to stop the pain of the tokens of guilt. But it could not deal with the real guilt.9

Presently, even Christianity as an institution relapses to the same level as all other religions as far as guilt is concerned. People in churches are encouraged to confess sins – tokens of guilt-  and to pray to stop doing those sins. Some of us were taught how to run from temptation and how to avoid sinning at all costs, but not taught what to do when the feet get tired of running. Teachings in Christianity are plenty how on to be prosperous and look good “as a child of God”, but the fundamental anger and hostility towards life and God is left untouched.

It is then shocking when one sees the thing one confessed and repented from two years ago suddenly reappearing. It has to. It is like a faithful messenger. One can only run for so long. One must eventually cross the bridge of real guilt.

It is the message of redemption that saw the veil in the temple torn apart9 and the heavenly priest go into the holies to deal with the real guilt once and for all.10 What the disciples of Jesus and the early church saw was so glorious and amazing. They saw the redemption and the glory of man being achieved all at once, where there had been a stalemate for thousands (millions if need be) years.11

We need to realize then that the message of redemption is not religion. It maybe embedded in religion, but it cuts through all religions. Even Christianity as a religion cannot solve our problem of guilt. It is only when we grasp the message of grace that religion becomes all right.

We could not of our own sort out the orientation problem despite our intelligent consciousness. The intelligence itself was corrupted by the disorientation. Our thinking process generates conflicts and questions. It is an intelligence that works towards self destruction if not illuminated by divine light. We can look around at the things we have created. Great technologies and great scientific breakthroughs. But they so easily become the tools for our own enslavement and destruction.

We needed help, desperately. We could not even begin to say what help we needed for we had no way to understand what really happened to us for a long time. All we had was the guilt in us, represented by shadows, called sins.

It is the grace of God that brings everything towards orientation once again. It is not by choice, but by destiny, that the grace of God is driving all being towards orientation. Our predicament was all that was need to call for the gift of providence. We all stand assisted by grace, even though we may be unconscious of it.

This is the process of healing that we are going through as a human race and as individuals within it. We are disoriented but are being moved and and brought back into orientation once again. To move back to orientation means going up the same way we went down. We will recognize the places we passed when we fell. But we will be seeing them from a different point of view.

The meaning of the grace of God is not only that our sins are forgiven, that is only the beginning. Rather it is that we are being assisted and saved from the real guilt of being disoriented from life itself. From our state of disorientation, we see things should be a certain way but they are not.

However as we begin participating in the the new consciousness, we awaken to a new reality. We begin to see things as they are, because we ourselves are one with those things. One with life, one with the Creator, one with our own selves.


References:
1. Bergson, Henri. Matter And Memory. London: George Allen & Unwin LTD, 1929.
2. Laitman, Michael. A Guide To The Hidden Wisdom Of Kabbalah. Toronto: Laitman Kabbalah Publishers, 2008.
3. Romans 7
4. Tillich, Paul. New Being. Charles Scribner's Sons, 1955. http://www.religion-online.org/showbook.asp?title=375
5. Romans 3
6. Katie, Byron; Mitchell, Stephen (2008-12-26). Loving What Is. Random House UK. Kindle Edition.
7. Galatians 3:10-14
8. Griffith, Jeremy. A Species In Denial.Sydney: FHA Publishing and Communications Pty Ltd, 2003
9. Matthew 27:51
10. Hebrews 9
11. John 1:1-18

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